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I was driving through the Jalan Tun Razak flyover where one of the Kuala Lumpur most intoxicated traffics attraction. It has been since many years as far as I can remember. Even before the construction of the underpass of the Bulatan Pahang.

As I drive, I notice the Blok A of the Pekeliling Flat has now turn to a barren land. The sight of it reminds me the good old days when I dropped by Tony house to pick up the comics. My parents used to forbid me from going to that place because they tend to think that places are no good. Some are some not. Nonetheless, I think they are just having a bad time of their life. That is why is happens some shit like suiciding and stuff.

On the other side of the road, the Blok B or C still intact. Even behind those adjacent building which used to be my mom working place has now been vacant. Deserted.

Looking back at all these stuff remind us that the world is changing. Everyday. It seems hard at first to accept it but as time goes by, it happens just at the flick of the eyes.

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Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a note with 20 random things, shortcomings, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 20 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Been tagged by a brother that I wanted but belong to another mother, this meme shall be the first meme on frostier.net.

1) I read as well. I enjoy words. They make me feel alive. I chunked half of my mini library consists 90% of Malay books and novels. Now I started to read stuff in English since my High School years, except Pedang Setiawan and Raja Rimba

2) I am quite a “kan cheong” person. I have no patience, hence I can be slight annoyance when it comes to that.

3) I have few running minds. I can be physically here but my mind wanders to few places at the same time. Call it multitasking. In fact, I often seems lost. My mind are blank all the time.

4) I love the darkness when it looms. Night is my domain.

5) The coffee and coke are my blood.

6) My thoughts are random. Beyond my control. The moment I hit anything, it starts it operation. That’s why they say mind is the devil workshop. Heh.

7) I usually get reply from people that they find hard to understand me. What I wanted to convey and, so on. I started to think I am unique, that I work on different plane.

I used to have imaginary friends. Wonder where they gone. Hence at times, it has been a habit that I talk to things. Be it turtles, fishes or even mahjong tiles.

9) My sister and I named the stuff toys. With this habit, I named most of my stuff.. Instead of Lolita 1, 2 or 3, I called them Cyndi and Citi.

10) I love to eat spicy food. Bak Kut Teh also.

11) I resigned to the fact that I am totally screwed up. The reason was I could not choose either I am a totally Popular Sanguine or Peaceful Melancholic. I find I wore two cap. Either one time I am charismatic and the next second, I feels blue. Mood swing? Mood disorder?

12) I am the master and skillful in the art of procrastinating. No one can do it better than me, at least I come to think about it.

13) Before people called me Dale, I used to regard myself as Hobbes Tan. Hobbes was inspired by the way Hobbes think in the “Calvin and Hobbes”

14) I listen to songs in search of definition. Once I found the particular sentence that struck my emotion, I live with it for the next weeks till I found another one.

15) I love movies. Any movie. Give it to me and I will glue myself to the silver screen.

16) Dale was chosen because of “Chip and Dale” and “Dale Carnegie”

17) If I am to adopt a pet, it would be a dog. Most likely a beagle.

18) I able to connect to kids better than adults. They are naive and I am the kid within me.

19) I love to walk under the rain. Being covered in rain, drenched makes me feel alive.

20) I used to read Cleo, Female and those magazines sponsored by my friend’s sister back in High School time.

Now the torturous part. Who to tag?

1. Benjemin – he who tagged me
2. Linpeh – I wanted to see how he going to bull this off
3. CKYeo – I expected this to be invalid
4. Ivan – same goes to this one
5. Hallajs – he is good
6. Kopi Soh – wanted to see if she will repeat the same meme or do another set of 20 uniques
7. Athan Wong – I expect the impossible from him
8. Alex Wong – besides 9, I wanted to know if he had anything more to mention
9. Lisan – the Kimchi got good things to share
10. Alex Ng – he will not do this shit. test our friendship and see…
11. Vicky – she wanted to treat me Nortel Sandwich/Nasi Lemak. Guess it come true at last?
12. Hun Chong – my taikor who always say I kenot make it. can he this time?
13. Cocka – i need his 20 shits
14. Costa Fong – Mana ur orkau
15. Ray Mak – he is very entertaining. Let us watch k?
16. Pamela Michelle – Something new from you?
17. Jayden Lim – let see what this kid can tell us
18. Nicole N – besides moet, anything else I should know?
19. Thian Sian – my brother got something to say as well…
20. Wilson – this guy where can miss out, must drag into water….

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Truly there are difference when one kept a journal. In my case, a blog per say. Looking at the archives since January 2008 till December 2008 which contains the parallel blog @ frostier.net, I learned that 2008 as it seems yet another year passed.

Quarter Life Crisis

During the first quarter of the year, things were aplenty to mention about apart from the General Election. Along the way was the Together Gather Party 2008 which failed to kick off due to commitment issues. Glad that it is finally up and running, with new committee members in place.
The second quarter gave me a fair share of shit. At least I painted it this way. I began to undergo what people called it ‘quarter life crisis’. Comparing to some very successful people, I am still nowhere to be found. Am I still searching for my true self, a question that I pose to myself unanswerable?

QLC

Tracing back my posts, I realized that I am not a bad writer myself. Through these posts, I rediscover myself and my thought processes. If it not for the blog, I never knew that I had once look at the life and its beauty in this perspective. This is totally awesome. When we recount back the trials we had been through, these phases we might call it, “striving, hurting, missing and even happiness”. Watching the movie In Pursuit of Happyness reminds me that everything in life is just a phase. It is part of the plan.
Still, when today my kheh mak tagged me over the facebook I read the note she left. It was heartwarming post that filled my eyes brim with tears. The love. Her love. Reminds me how I miss his presence at this moment in my life.

And as I go along the archives for 2008, I realized that I make a lot of friends. Online and offline. Far and near. Different kinds of them. I get acquaintance and the bonding starts. I found the brotherly love that I found amiss among my blood brothers. Perhaps the age gap and distance had it between us. This has been a truly blessing in disguise and for the first time, we went out lepaking @ Centro and for the International Extreme Autoshow in Bukit Jalil. Thanks dSaintx.

Brother

I have attended funerals, weddings, birthday bashes and even reunion in this 2008. Throughout these events, I reflect it upon myself how I want things to be like. With that, I begin to open up a new chapter of my life. I wanted to start fresh again by dropping off this old hizecool.com blog and move on to frostier.net.

Wedding Dinner

I read books that I never think I would. I found strength and courage; inspirations and determinations. I see myself differently. Whom a person dSaintx keep saying I full of emotions that I am being. Yes, I agreed to the max. With all these in place, I am able to feel hurt, pain and aghast. Nothing can be done but to endure. Only endure.
“Endure, master Bruce. You can take it” – from the Dark Knight

In the final quarter of the year, frostier.net was truly my haven. A few old posts were removed and some minor changes on the outlook of the blog. It was to make it cleaner and simpler. Hence, it is no longer a “crying child” as translated from hizecool but struck it as my own identity. Even that the last week someone over the ucpro commented that my nick sounded gay. Who cares when I have lived with the nick for years?

World Cyber Games

I was so down that I needed something more to remind me of life is not just about my own personal stuff but rather, the whole. The final quarter of the year had it coming. I had seen it coming and knew it is going to hit me hard. Went on few road trips just to put things behind but I learned that it is not that simple. You still need to face it when you back to reality. It is the same kind of shit. Just different places. At the same time, I had a kick of reality. How to deal with things when it turn out never be perfect? Like the fiasco of hotel booking, submerge in the sand and stuff? That is when we laid back and laugh at own misfortune. It is great to have friends like this. It bring the best and the worst in us. It built characters.

Friends

Recounting the days, I turned out to be grumpier and much hostile when the whole turn into the pieces during Ryan and Connie pre-wedding dinner night. It was my birthday that day and it was mid-autumn eve as well. Fairly to say it sticks with me till now. I have to let it go. It seeps into every single cell and killing me softly.

Wedding Registration

and when you think, the worthy of your causes and how to inspire you to act you need something far more greater, far more bigger. You begin by search within. What happened next is you wanted something for yourself. You owe yourself something. A dramatic life otherwise not even the actors want to be part of it. If Huei you are reading this, yes… camwhore with you if you coming for the next meeting.

Cake

As to end the year of 2008, attended Daniel and Jamie wedding dinner on the New Year eve. Everyone I knew barely asked me where am I going to celebrate and ushering the 2009. Simple. With my Latkyoks, we started the 2009 with everyone getting drunk. Bottles of Hennessy VSOP were emptied as the clock ticking strike 12 midnight. I wanted to get wasted so much that I fear of losing control. Knowing that it is not nice having to troubles the brothers to get me home, I contained myself despite the fact that I have all the valid reasons to do so. It was the second time that my request goes unfulfilled. It was my bros big day and there is no ‘I’ agenda that day. Bros come first.

Nibong Tebal

With that the year 2008 has ended. It was a closure which gives me a hanging ending. At least much more better way for 2009 to start with.

The unwritten ones
I recalled the day when I was having a TT with Francis. He asked what my achievements in 2008 were. I told him that I have no idea and probably no achievements since I had no resolutions for 2008.
The best thing is that he had a great view of things. Through him, I came out with some ups and some downs.
the ups
• started to pluck some strings
• getting a much decent means of transportation
• getting the new communication device over from a friend
• get to know more friends – from blogs, utopia and facebook
• able to take more alcohol inside my bloodstream
• more road trips (Cameron, Kuantan)
• minor promotion plus minor increments (have to mention since my ladyboss checking me on my facebook/blog nowadays and hope that she will increase more this year)
• kheh mak adopted me
• managed to read some books (cannot remember how many)
• got my first paycheck from adsense (April 24th)

the downs
• unable to start pirate radio station
• failed to get tgg2 to kick off in 2008
• getting called noob in dota still
• failed in buying a house
• pp, 916 and schemers plan failed

Given the above, I would say Year 2008 is a good year. Not bad but Year 2009 can be better. At least that by looking at it, I knew the ups is more than the downs.
So thanks for everything 2008, and Goodbye.

And Hello 2009!

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