At this particular seconds, I knew that the fact that I should get the hold of myself and start to pull myself together to work on several things that I need to prepare before the tomorrow comes. I should know that the WAR report, the pricing schedule and proposal are few things that requires my immediate attention. Once again, I have proved myself to be an ultimate procrastinator by doing nothing the whole day.

I begin to believe I am so good with it that I wanted to cut some slack out of it. Still my conscious mind told me that I cannot do such things. Especially to treat my clients and customers with unfairness. I should start doing my work soon.

Just that before I proceed with the actual content I wanted to blog about, would like to voice out here some matters with my principal. Yes. In fact, my colleague and I have been working with a consultant to come out with a tender document which is suppose to be fair and neutral requirements. And indeed it does except the guy just dump the rest of unrelated documents inside. My biggest concern will be talking to the principal. Many times, in fact a couple times when we talked to the same guy we were brushed off by the statement “We have someone inside working on it, you won’t be getting the discount level required”. To me, if there is someone working on it, why till today that none of these project fall into your hand? What are you trying to prove?

Anyway, coming back to the subject whereby I would really love replying my best buddy, Wilson on some of his comment on my facebook.

NP. i no count with him…. oiii dale where is the balance money u owe me… wakaka… joking joking.we are brother la NP… @.@”"

What balance? The 3 bucks went to the waiter tips. He never come back with the change also.

=.=”
he make me sick this month.. u better talk to him more .. haha…

I do wish that talking can solve that issue but it ain’t that simple. Or actually its very simple. Perhaps I just complicated the things. I will survive. Just give me eternity.

haha..u ask him lah.. whole month talk to ppl got bone come out 1… somemore is those sharp type..
I never thought of it as bone. Rather, I am trying my best to be very objective about matters. Hence, I ended up kind of being blunt.

@.@” dinasour bone… like whole world kiam ee yeh……

It me who kiam the whole world. So it is very tiring trying to pay off all these.. u know?

that why i say he make me sick this month… last time he is not like that…-.-” he change……

I changed. Change is good. It is just to the better or worse. It seems to the latter? Good grief, what I am last time?

haha.. u say so.. but he is happy last nite at the end..

Am i? I just glad I am induced with enough alcohol. Come when going to finish the rest of HVSOP? I did pay for it….

Bro, thanks !

Finally with the submission of the one tender, and another kind of screwed up. I was late for the submission. Pretty late by an hour. It was damnest ever happened to me. My principal screw things up. I had the pricing 40 minutes before the deadline. Just imagine if I can complete everything within 5 min? Plug the pricing, print, burned copies of CD and pack? Come on…. it is pretty much look like a setup.

Let the bygone be bygone. The customer was displeased with the late submission and hence was requested to submit in the letter explaining the reason for the late submission. Have to tell the truth then. What to do? If I were disqualified because of the late issue, then my midnight oil being burnt is totally gone. Wasted for nothing in the end. Two nights staying very late in office just because of these two tenders.

After the submissions, I had many other things to follow up. Looking at the list now, again it gives me the chill. Another round of stressful week ahead. Probably two weeks. With the amount of tasks, I do not think it is pretty straight forward. Too many follow ups and too many minor details thing needed to be completed.

Unable to think very far right now. Too many clouded my mind. Still, today is 31 and there is hefty discount from Baskin Robbins. If only…

Right now, I am sitting in the office in the middle of night. After the instant gratification on the Johor trip during the Deepavali holiday, I have to put up with the tasks that is pending of from me. It does not sounds good especially when yesterday (Tuesday) afternoon I had to face my manager. She wanted the things to be ready for discussion by tomorrow morning (Wednesday morning) which is few hours from now.

She asked me whether I could get things done since I did not spend my time over the weekend to complete the works. At that time, I knew that things are not as easy as it seems. Nonetheless I have already had my time last weekend so she threw me a question, whether I can get things ready by tomorrow for her. I knew for sure that I have no clue at all as I am lost. I can only reply her, “yeah, I get it done by tomorrow”

Hence I am here now alone in the office while everyone is enjoying the slumber night. Since that I was pretty worn out during the trip to Johor, right now my engine (my brain) is shutting down. This cannot happen. Urgh.. I still got 4 more tasks to completion…..

chapter: finale

So when the both the monk and the apostle meet, therefore a man just give up his. What you seen he has been doing and going through no longer matters. That is just because he knew that it is the rule that is being wrong. Often I keep telling people that at times when you see the rules and regulations, it is just a guidelines. More or less, it tell you what can be done and what cannot. It is there for keep the most commoners in order.

Hence I rather am to be punished but to give up my freedom to choose to remain as it is. For that, is another story for another time?

chapter: the apostle

The other day, Leroy called me up for a dinner session with him since he was on his way home. I told him that I was around Cheras and I could meet up with him for a dinner session, even though I had took my dinner earlier. At the A&W Leisure Mall was our rendezvous place. He ordered a set of value meal while I brought along a McDonald’s Banana Pie despite of the rule “no pets and outside food allowed”

By the time I finished the pie, Leroy’s meal had yet being served. As he finished the last bite of the burger, I told him that I have the caffeine withdrawal syndrome and I needed coffee. He agreed to join me for a cup of coffee at the Starbucks next door.
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chapter: the monk

As I shared with Wilson the other day, that I recently so keen into some interesting hobbies such as being an audiophile. I explained to him that my intention to involved in the sound thingy like setting up the pirate radio station, installing software to do DJ – such as the Cakewalk and related software. It just feels that way.

I might as well get an audio mixer so I can hook up with some instruments. That I can produce my list of songs to be broadcast over the pirate radio once the radio unit has been completed. I told him that I could be famous for this. more…

How could it be when things just doesn’t go your way? all i know and all I can endure, I will do it. Against what the world are subject to complacent to. Not me. I always the opposition. Against the grain to say the least.

Halfway through my initial draft, I was late for a meeting that required my dearest attention. Hence, I rushed my way through the post and to attend the meeting. It was interesting meeting because the world is so small. Almost everyone there know everyone, of the every man Jack.
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